i miss home.
yes, i know--i have a home here in the south with my sweet family, surrounded by my husband's loving parents and brothers, my supportive church family and friends and warm weather most of the year...but i miss snowy central new york..well, i don't REALLY miss the snow but i miss everything else...
i miss green grass
stars
purple and
fuschia sunsets
1 car = traffic
my brothers
the air
the trees
camping
the sound of crickets and coy dogs
wildflower
boquetscows
and farm smells..hay, silage, poo
ice cream cones so tall they hit the roof of your car
tractors driving 5 mph down the road
i've been here for 7 years now...and
i'm so glad i came--these 7 years have been wonderful, but
i've gotten to thinking that things will NEVER be the same--even if i were to move home, most of my friends have moved away, my brothers are living in their own homes, my parents are "free spirits" (and rightfully so) and i am a woman with a family--no longer a barefoot bumpkin wandering in the woods.
this usually doesn't bother me but tonight it does.
i know these are the things that make one long for heaven--a home where loved ones will not leave but will be bound together with me in worship of the Savior and that is a good thing.
but tonight, i miss my little piece of heaven on earth--a country house on top of a tall hill, with hilly meadows and forests filled with wildlife and trees, a pond with snakes and turtles, acres of land to roam, quiet living, porch-sitting afternoons, boating on the
reservoir, fence posts and childhood memories.
well, even if i can't live it, i feel better for having written it all down.